Happy Anniversary, Beloved!
Jun. 26th, 2006 09:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
omahasSeventeen years and two days ago, I convinced Elf that we should get married. We had been living together for almost four years by then. I got him to believe that we were basically married anyway, we might as well go make it legal. Gullible guy! ;-)
Two days later, we stood in a beautiful flower garden in front of a justice of the peace and said our vows. We hadn't even told our relatives that we were getting married (that is a story all it's own). We held each other's hand, looked into each other's eyes, and never looked back.
I have dreams now, every once in a while, of Elf having died. I think they happen when I start to doubt whether I still really love Elf, or whether we're just comfortable and there's nothing really there. I'm wandering around town, sobbing...just sobbing. I can't do anything else. There is nothing else to do. Everything is gone, when Elf is gone.
I wake up crying from those dreams.
When I need a hug, he's the first person I think of. When I want to cuddle, there is no one else to go to. When I need support, or someone to laugh at a stupid joke, or just talk things out...he's the one I look to.
He is my everything.
Two days later, we stood in a beautiful flower garden in front of a justice of the peace and said our vows. We hadn't even told our relatives that we were getting married (that is a story all it's own). We held each other's hand, looked into each other's eyes, and never looked back.
I have dreams now, every once in a while, of Elf having died. I think they happen when I start to doubt whether I still really love Elf, or whether we're just comfortable and there's nothing really there. I'm wandering around town, sobbing...just sobbing. I can't do anything else. There is nothing else to do. Everything is gone, when Elf is gone.
I wake up crying from those dreams.
When I need a hug, he's the first person I think of. When I want to cuddle, there is no one else to go to. When I need support, or someone to laugh at a stupid joke, or just talk things out...he's the one I look to.
He is my everything.
