My Life...what it's been like

[omahas]

Over the past year or so I've been pretty quiet. There are a number of reasons for this...some of which I'll mention in this post, some of which I won't. Some I may never actually discuss. One very particular reason is that, after a period of time, I've discovered that when one has a great deal to say it becomes difficult to say anything. There is so much to talk about that it becomes hard to figure out where to start, what to focus on for that particular post, and when to end it. Eventually, one just says, "Oh, the hell with it" and starts up a game. It doesn't help that the game must be played for work (I'm not kidding about this...I do review games for a living, so that makes this excuse even more difficult to ignore).

But I also use this excuse to avoid contact with others. I think that is another problem I have been having over the past year...probably more. When you work from home, contact with others becomes a chore to arrange. Eventually, you start convincing yourself on a subconscious level that you are not interesting enough for other people's time and space, and besides, don't you have that game to review? Being epileptic and having problems getting places doesn't make it easier.

So, what I guess I'm saying is that I intend to start posting in my blog again on a regular basis, not just as a means to communicate my thoughts to other people, but as a means of therapy for myself. To remind myself that I am a worthwhile person (you know that when just saying a phrase like that makes you tear up, you have issues).

So, what have I been up to these past 12 months (or more)? A lot, actually. I have been a busy bee (bzz, bzz, bzz). I'm not going to spend this post talking in detail about all of it...I'll be posting in detail separately about each one. But I'll summarize.

I had two separate revelationary events in the past 12 months. The first one was in January. Some events occurred around my business at that time that caused me to make some very hard, very difficult decisions. Of course, the universe felt that such decisions couldn't be made in a vacuum, so it saw fit to send the death of my beloved Dinah the same week. In the end, those decisions helped me a great deal with much of my business stuff, but I'm due to make some more decisions about work in the next four months. Joy.

I also chose to run for chair of my Democratic legislative district. I'll talk about the details about that later, but suffice to say that I won, and the experience since has been eye-opening.

The second revelationary event was just in the past week regarding my relationship with Yamaarashi-chan. I won't be going into details about it in my public blog, but suffice to say that the event was very positive. Not to say that there won't be difficulties to come, but many issues I have had have been dealt with and put to bed, and roads of relationship cleared.

I'll be making some more posts in the next few days...I'm going to try to post at least once every other day. We'll see how that works.

Comments

YAY!

[codeamazon.livejournal.com]

I feel guilty a lot that I socialize here, email, facebook instead of "in the real world", but the reality is I'd have lost track of SO many people if I didn't.

I was just thinking yesterday "why do I only see people when there's work to be done?" and then today realized there are three really important chores all needing to be done today, and all of them more than a day's chore.

I'm glad you'll be posting. It shouldn't be so hard to get together, but it just is. It gets easier when kids get older, so I hear.

Re: YAY!

[omahas.livejournal.com]

With all of the things the two of us have on our collective plates, it's a wonder that we ever have time to breath, let alone do anything else!

I've decided that I will try to set aside a little time each week as time for myself...things to do for me. You won't believe how hard that will be for me, especially right now (well, maybe you will). But I spend way too much time focusing on doing for others and getting work done, and forget that I am a person and a human being. So, I'm going to work a bit on that.

Maybe we should try to do that together?

Re: YAY!

[(Anonymous)]

I'm thinking over how to do it. I realized Saturday the only things I really make time for are things where I'm helping someone or otherwise can feel "justified" in taking time from my own workload.

That said, it's just gotten more complicated. My new boss's likely departure leaves my new job in a lot of question and I need to work harder still to get my own contracting site and such up.

So, in theory I'm all over it. In practice, I don't know how to proceed.

[technoshaman.livejournal.com]

Was just thinking about you this morning....

[slutdiary.livejournal.com]

Hey old friend... looking forward to hearing what you have to say. I've been missing you. Perhaps coffee sometime, for more of a catchup?

[omahas.livejournal.com]

I'd like that a lot. Email me and let's arrange a get together. :)

[ladyallyn.livejournal.com]

You are Beautiful. You are Talented. You are Brilliant. You are Valued.

Our world would be greatly diminished without you in it (even if we don't get to see you often -- *we'd* like to do something about that...).

(And, you are a nexus in a very, VERY small world. Greetings from an old friend at Pirate )

[omahas.livejournal.com]

::blush:: Thank you, sweetie.

[huddyn.livejournal.com]

That old joke about 'How do you eat an elephant' does seem to apply.

[miraclemax.livejournal.com]

Welcome back! Congrats on the election :)

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